there is no other way to describe it.
and i am not full in the “i just ate two big macs and some fries” full. instead, i am overflowing with every possible positive word you can imagine.
its not because my life is perfect, or because i have enough money to buy everything i want. it is because i choose happiness. and while i am striving to get to where i aspire to be, i am also content with where i am at.
my day was full of meaning because i had the opportunity to do every single thing that i love all in one day.
i woke up at 5 am (huge personal accomplishment) and spent the morning at my internship. to describe where i am interning as “inspirational” just wouldn’t do it justice. i guarantee i am learning more from the clients than they are learning from me. i listened to stories of struggle, of the process of overcoming. of persevering. and today, one particularly quiet man decided to speak.
i listened to people in recovery, of struggling to become sober. i heard good people talk about their ‘not so good habits,’ and i witnessed them putting their best foot forward trying to change. and i couldn’t feel more complete. although i do not have my “real job” yet, i feel blessed to wake up every morning doing exactly what i love. it hasn’t always been like this. but it is so rewarding to finally see and feel things coming together. i understand that sometimes it is not that easy, but the point is to stop wasting your time doing things that don’t fill you up.
i had to leave my internship early to go to a mandatory meeting for school. and although the meeting was uneventful, i decided to enjoy it anyway. because when it comes down to it, i truly love learning. i love challenging myself, expanding my horizons, and finding new perspectives to life. i also feel fortunate to have the opportunity to attend college; so while i may sometimes hate the homework, tests, or just school in general, i also do my absolute best to not take it for granted.
after the meeting, i left campus to go pick up the girl i mentor. it makes me happy to see how much she has grown over the past year. i ate dinner with her siblings and foster family and then played tea party with her precious 4 year old sister. no matter how busy you are, you have to take time to play. it’s okay to still be a kid sometimes : ) we went shopping, and because it gets dark so early, we took time out to look at the stars. we got milkshakes and giggled like teenage girls, because i believe its always okay to be a little bit silly.
after a 14 hour day i got to come home.
and while i am so ridiculously tired,
my heart is full.